ok so we went on to speak to white oak- figured why not- and the head deacon who i never knew but was there when were were there 5 years ago came across like a complete JERK with in the first minute-- wow and it was in that session that i realized that although he said he wanted to change ( to adapt was actually his word) he really was doing it reluctantly- and i sensed that the youth were actually not a alley to him in church they were just a group that needed to be tended to. all night i had restless sleep- and woke up saying No- the funny thing i could really stand behind their interim pastor who i believe will be there for a while- any way i guess we'll call some time this week , and tell them to withdraw my name. i really believe that that church could turn around , but i know that they aren't ready for me- sounds so funny me saying something like that with so much confidence- but it's the truth -- i'm not up for that battle either. let the interm do the weeding- they still don't know what a minister is there- in there view he's someone they controle, and they havn't a clue what ministry is. so here we are-- God hasn't released us from Pleasant Hill- so I'll pour my self into the summer

God is having an impact at PH
today we had youth Sunday for Mothers day- and it went well-- had a student preach- it was exactly a 10 min. sermon ha i knew i should have been prepared for it - but no i had a stomach virus all week so i just laid around moaning , and well what else goes with stomach virus-- any way so i jumped up there and we recapped the meaning behind our song selections, and our interpretive movements, as well as the skits- then we had every one listen to masquerade by casting crowns- and the sanctuary was silent -- i could tell that they were really thinking about their relationships with each other, and how they approach God.

isn't God something-- he uses me, us to plant so many diferent kinds of seeds

Teresa and i where talking about this after we met with the people from White Oak- and we both thought the same Q at the same time- IS God Gonna have us work with difficult traditional churches for the rest of His ministry with us-- are we to be the ones to plant the seeds for the few non blind in the type churches- or will be a part of what-- cause it seems that this is where we've been for so long-- still if it is, then so be it- hey goodness Pleasant hill had a praise Ballad from Kutless today, as well as I WORSHIP-- it may have been on a standing screen done from a lap top just 5 feet away- but it happened, 4 years ago it was southern Gospel only. WHo knows What God May bring if we could just get the deacons too... hum keep all that off here, and well the sunday morning sermons hummm??? I know it sounds judginging but it is what it is.

the song from when i was alitlle kid in sunday school keeps going through my mind these past few days

A sun Beam A sunbeam
Jesus wants me for a sunbeam
a sun beam
a sund beam
I'll be a sun beam for Him

funny huh? tickle tickle from God- i need to learn to Giggle with Him.